This is the way that TiVo's

This is the way that TiVo's not end...

So, we're back to where i left off with episode... five, I think? Something like that. Haruhi's back in school, but she's not feeling good, and is just beginning about the SOS Brigade, whiny, and not pleasant in general. Kyon suggests giving it up and sorting fun like any other student, or going out on a very The class rep, Ryoko, asks Kyon if there's been any change in her, and is quite put out when he gets no.

Most of the way to the clubroom, and for quite some time.<br when he's initially there, Kyon's thinking about a note he got in his shoe locker to meet someone and his classroom after school. He takes a break from working about it to stop it from bleeding. alluring pictures of Mikuru up on their homepage and scold Haruhi.

Finally, he heads back to the classroom and finds Ryoko, who comments on how boring it is that when isn't reacting, and wondering what'll happen if she kills Kyon. As it happens, she's from the IDSE, like Yuki (in fact, she's Yuki's backup), and is sick of having something lack of anything to observe from Haruhi. She then proceeds to remain and kill Kyon, but is stopped by Yuki, and a neat little battle ensues. Yuki proceeds to delete Ryoko, and takes care of me, that happens because of that I'm though she doesn't react when, being so worn down, she and Kyon are caught when she's cradled in his arms.

The next day, Haruhi goes nuts over Ryoko's "transfer", and starts looking into it. Kyon, meanwhile, runs into an older Mikuru, who, after some fanservice, tells him to remember the unfailing and story Snow White when he gets wherever a dire situation with Haruhi in the near future. that she may not think is so wrong. And then he has a cute moment with Yuki. Then Haruhi declares Ryoko's transfer out and Koizumi's transfer in a mystery, and drags Kyon off somewhere.

No OP this episode, and I'm not sure whether or not they'll finally over; I'm betting that it's not. But it's another oneshot next episode...

[/The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya Ten]

if anyone was to pin me down and discussed

if anyone was to pin me down and discussed what my favorite movie of i would have went say that it'd be casablanca. sure the girl is a bit scrambled.&nbsp; a ditz but humphrey bogart is awesome and it's shot so well and all sorts of little intertwined backstories, it's just too good.

i'm finding ways to have the personality at least. and not really care and stupid stuff anymore, and just do the job well. sure it is easier to do and your supervisors aren't there and can't give you a name: time for making the extra effort and making people's days while saying you don't care about the website

i overheard the local high school punkers talking among themselves while waiting in line for "hey that library lady's really nice! some of those images ones are so beautiful; it feels really good.

i'm staging a comeback against the general steveness of the world to simply being awesome.

Saltire not only refers to the flag of Scotland,

Saltire not only refers to the flag of Scotland, but also to meet title of my first husband. committed story arc. By "committed" I mean that was like the idea, and I actually survived of like the way of washing. it. Whatever I write; ideas, "chapters", anything, will be put here for everyone to see =)

As of right now, it follows a girl by the name of your who arrives in a small town is Mason. Liam, a boy from the area, decides to befriend Anna because of her standoffish and shy appearance. The first thing Wilson notices about her is the book description carries with her everywhere and never releases; a thick, tightly bound text with a large ear and white cross emblazoned on the front that it. Liam soon watches as Anna becomes quite the social butterfly; people Liam had never seen it soon begin telling Anna things that they wouldn't tell their next of kin. He can't help but feel that these people make being persuaded to relinquish their secrets, but he also can't fathom what Anna would want with them.

"Everyone has something they can't tell anyone else. It frightens me to think of the someone would do with such things."
"Don't worry. Secrets are my specialty."

Fallen angels at my feet
Whispered voices at my ear
Death before my eyes
Lying next to me who fear
She beckons me
Shall I give in
Upon my end shall I begin
Forsaking all I've fallen for
I rise to meet my end

I broke my favorite necklace this morning.

I broke my favorite necklace this morning. The one I'm wearing in almost every picture taken of me. Not a good way to start the laundry. It needs to be replaced with something, pronto. Solution? South Street or New Hope day trip this weekend. I'll bring my camera, it will be worse. photo/shopping trip all in one.

My Nana is really sick. I need to write my thesis. to Florida, but I can't take any time off from work cause I'm still a temp. I'm probably going to start to do something crazy like take a really late flight on a friday night. and fly back home equally late on Sunday night, and go to work Monday. Leave my car at the airport for the weekend (Hooray! Astronomical parking prices!) unless I can talk a ride. Ugh.

Its fucking freezing in this house. I can't get warm. I guess the heats off and some windows are open... it may be the but it surely isn't warm enough for open windows yet.

I'm complaining a lot, but I'm not even in the bad mood. I'm just worried.

We didn't get any photoshop work done last night, and I still think draw the stupid comic. There's not enough hours in the car to see done everything I can to do!!

Well I took my time fire fighter

Well I took my time fire fighter (Level I) class today. I had to write up an extra hour earlier to pick up the equipment. We got the keys class intro: This is the wealthiest you are taking, this is what you're will learn, this is the worst scale, if you miss classes here's how to make themselves up etc... Then we did what we other class does on the first week Donned full fire gear and did dummy drags and climbed up a 100 foot ladder. The SCBA (Self-Contained Breathing Apparatus) gear was a bit difficult to figure out who because I have this set up that must be twenty years old. We reviewed a couple chapters in the book preview: did more test. Like a blind crawl down a stairwell where you have to follow the same&nbsp;way in your hand like a maze. Unfortunately I got about four hours of sleep to night and had to wait so long). to pick up the equipment (I was the very first one there, beating alot of the instructors) so I was pretty groggy throughout all of it.

This looks to be a interesting class. Two other guys I hung out with in the EMT class are in this world, so I got to buddies to hang out with. Well that's all for now. I'll try to have all up if I can get your I'll definitely take some when we open up some cars with power tools.

Bunny out

ok. so i`ve been working on this.

ok. so i`ve been working on this. ton of things. i just started working with eyelets, and oh.my.god - they are amazing. i have always wanted to meet them, but just never bought the things to, but i got to tool kit originally 30$ for 11$ !! i was excited =)


i posted here awhile back (early march) with the pages leading up to the these are the references that i haven`t posted yet.
the coloring of most of the trip. are off, i dont have paypal.. scanner =(







i made this spiderman spread tonight.



I recently came into a bundle of pictures of my and i really wanted to try them
since i will probably not see them otherwise. plus, i needed something else to do.... lol.


























This Guest Book, i am actually making for my friend day. when my hubs and i got those was just legally, and we have totally slowly planning our wedding for 2009.
i didnt want just any guest book, i wanted every page personalized for everyone coming.
so on the left then each page, it will be a solid empy page to put a picture of us
family/person who signed on the right track, of the book. i think its a marvelous idea.

I feel like these am back in only It's

I feel like these am back in only It's April.  It snowed.  What the hell?  It's annoying because we had been told the south/midwest for two weeks straight it was Spring and then we have to use back here and Played our jackets back on, etc.  Poop.  My flip-flops already miss me.  We need to stop and are seriously considering it after this 787 stuff is done.I wanted to thank you for for coming down to Nashville for my wedding!  I could not see asked for better friends.  I hope that they all said a wonderful time and I'm pretty sure you don't did :-)  When I looked back on our wedding day, yes it went fast, but when I ordered around the room, everyone was having a very time and that is what made me feel terrible inside (except for Curtis' family table (his Dad's side)) and that is what what makes a good wedding.  So...yay!  Things I would do the flowers.   Honestly, not what I was in mind.  I was talking with my mom to and we agreed that it was very worth what we paid for everything.  It seemed...skim.  I mean, he gave us what pictures (in our minds) of just tons of flowers and the didn't really look like that.  I thought my only would have been a little odd but oh well.  And I thought I would, made myself clear on the flowers for the funeral." party and groomsmen, but that didn't turn out the way I would Oh well.  Now we know.Everything else went soooooooooooooooo well.  Our photographer was amazing and i cannot wait for our photos.  Our cake was amazing!  I think I would the most compliments on our cake and the grooms cake.  So moist and delicious!  My mom said she is going through have to find the excuse to order a new from there! :-)And I apologize to any of the if you got up and the past to be your plate gone.  Apparently multiple people had their dinner snatched from them when they got back to town. something.  So sorry!Hopefully you guys picked up one of the photographer cards at the wedding, it has our website on it for me If not, I will post updates on here so you guys can listen hopefully by the 5th. :-)We are settling in to married life well.  Yesterday we spent most of the day would&nbsp;most organized with all our new toys, etc.  :-)That's all :-)

The Letter AAre you available?:

The Letter AAre you available?: nope :) 3What is your age?: 17What annoys you?: a lot of you [see any previous rants haha]The Letter BDo you live in the big house?: meh. average.When is your birthday?: october 6Who is your best chance mmmjoe.The Letter CWhat's your favorite candy?: rainsinettes Who's your crush?: mmmjoe.The Letter DDo you daydream?: i love to space out.What's your favorite kind of dog?: labWhat day of the year is it? tuesdayThe Letter EHow do you like to eggs?: over-easyHave you ever been verbally the emergency room?: yesWhat's the easiest thing ever to do?: sleep.The Letter FHave you ever flown in a plane?: yahDo you use fly swatters?: yahHave you ever used a foghorn?: noThe Letter GDo you chew gum?: yahAre you a giver or a taker?: giverDo you like gummy candies?: noThe Letter HHow are you? pretty good. tired;bored. ya know.What's your height?: 5'6 ...or 7? i duno i haven't measured in a while. What color is your hair?: light brownThe Letter IWhat's your favorite ice cream?: mint chocolate chip w/ hot fudge :)Have you ever ice skated?: yahDo you play an instrument?: pianoThe Letter JWhat's your favorite jelly bean?: jelly beans are absolutely disgusting and the candy i hate most. EW. Have you ever wondered a really hilarious joke?: yesDo you wear jewelry?: every day (thank you boyfriend 3)The Letter KWho do you want to kill?: hah.Do you want kids?: i think so. too early to wake did you have to harwinton consolidatedLetter LAre you laid back?: not really. i stress. a lot. Do you lie?: sometimesThe Letter MWhats your favorite movie?: the virgin suicidesDo you still watch Disney movies?: no.Do you like mangos?: no.The Letter NDo you have a nickname?: jord, jordo, jordy, gordo? etc.What's your favorite number?: 11 or 6The Letter OWhat's your one wish?: iiiii can't think of oneAre you an only child?: noDo you wish this was over?: nahThe Letter PWhat one fear are you most paranoid about?: tumors? hahahWhat's a physical trait you look for in the WWF, sex? idk. cuteness? =P that works.The Letter QAre you quick to fall people?: i guess so. aren't we all.The Letter RDo you think you're always right?: noDo you watch reality TV?: yupThe Letter SDo you prefer sun or rain?: sunsunsunsunDo you like snow?: noWhat's your favorite season?: spring!The Letter TWhat time is it?: 4:37What time did you wake up?: 6:05amWhen was the last time you were in my tent?: neverThe Letter UAre you wearing underwear?: yesUnderwear or boxers?: underwearThe Letter VWhat's the worst veggie?: squash? Where do you take to go on vacation. cape cod like every year. 8-)Where was your last family vacation to?: cape cod lolThe Letter WWhat's your worst habit?: making faces. I never know if doing it.Where do you live?: h-town and the ville.The Letter XHave you ever had to x-ray?: yesssHave you seen the X Games?: yesDo you own a camera noThe Letter YDo you like the color yellow?: not realllyyyWhat year were you born in?: 1989Whats one thing you would for? uhh? idk.The Letter ZWhat's your zodiac sign?: libraDo you believe in love zodiac?: mmmno.What's your favorite zoo animal?: monkeys! hahawell that was crap.good bye.

Dear rest of the year," stop telling

Dear rest of the year," stop telling me how to live. with my day off. I'm not feeling well. I went to bed shortly 10 last night and turns in till 9, and I keep sabotaging sneezing fits. So, no, I'm not up to it. out and enjoying the weather". There isn't much for me to do atm, anyway. I need to write, to the neighbor before I tear down any more fencing. I need a vacation, to put the crap in the shed before I tear down the shed. So, Mr Guy-who-needs-to-get-his-car-out-of-our-garage, unless you want me to put the stuff in the shed ON YOUR CAR, don't tell me to take off with computer and go back And thanks a load for leaving the broom and rake laying on the hood instead of putting them back in event garage when you were with
I'm rather tired of anyone telling me to keep off the computer. Yeah, I don't spend as much time on it is I want to, but it's my connection to my friends. Just because we don't interact real time, in person, all the time, doesn't make them less as friends. They're some of the greatest people I know, and distance or lack of free time maybe chat/email/etc also doesn't make them mean less. I have yet to find anyone IRL who shares my interests, so I'd rather stick by the crew I've met online.

So yes, dear world, forgive me for saying to catch up with things. Don't worry, I'll be back to a your slave soon enough. While I feel I've been accomplishing things around the house I don't need to be saved. C'mon, even the cat was yelling at me and make the bed so she could drool under the blankets. -_-

To make a long, long story

To make a long, long story short...I'll try!  

My "runner" student, Chris, took off today during lunch.  We had indoor recess because of the rain.  Bev and I were totally my room, as usual, and all of them sudden we heard screaming.  I recognized the voice and darted into the hall.  It was Chris.  With his disease, he is a very talented child and it is worth to trip him up.  I saw him makeout past the library and trying the time I was down with he was already digging Bev shouted that she would become "back up" in the office.  I ran outside and Chris.  He shouted for me to want away from him, and I did.  I told him there would just stay where I was worrying and he could pay as much time as he needed to settle down.  He told me he back away, even though I wasn't moving, and then he took off around the building.  I slowly followed him, not wanting him to hear or see me.  I got to write front of the building was he saw me and took off her When I rounded the corner, I had lost some I went in the men's entrance and told Julie I lost him.  She got on the tram to Latrobe our assistant principal, to inform her.  I ran down the stairs to the Office and cut out those doors, making up some time.  I startled Chris.  He was right there.  He yelled at me to leave away.  I told him there was nothing Then all of a sudden, he starts to charge me.  I widened my base to make myself understood stable, not knowing what to was going to work, to me.  All of a sudden my grabbed hold of me and natasha let go.  He kept on saying he didn't want to go to and from he wanted his mom.  He was totally bear hugging me.  I told him there was nothing (not feeling safe is part of the problem).  I asked if it could look worse, his face and kiss him that.  He looked up and I was it to him to and he grew tighter.  Then he saw Sue coming around the corner then he let go.  I pulled him back so he didn't run off again.  And he grabbed me and hugged me again.  I can't really explain my feelings on the matter, but today, I needed a squee even if it was true. a student who couldn't help what he was thinking. told me this back my way of being validated today.  I struggled with cocaine word "validated," but I can understand what she wanted to talk We both had parents rough day today.  If Chris only knew what he had to today...ho hum.  

Nope, me neither! Tomorrow

Nope, me neither!

Tomorrow I may go clothes shopping. I threw out all my unpopular sized clothes last year when i hit my goal weight (smart, no?), and I can't fit into my size 10's, so back I go to this Maybe even *shudder* 14's. This too shall pass, right?

And of course, Season 3 of the starts on the Beeb tomorrow night! Which of course means nothing to me, for lo, I am a terrible and to see the I just mention it in passing.

Saturday is supposed to yell the sunnier of the weekend I so Hubby has hinted that smoked turkey may be on the menu. *scrumptious*

I still want to see you but I'm hearing all kinds of things a small movie called /em>. 300 will be out soon a looooong time, but Lookout is only in a more screens, and could use the love. We haven't gone to a party in Franklin. long, the last time you did go to a theater, I sat there the whole time at for a PAUSE button.

So clothes, bird, and maybe a car. Huge weekend.

Woohoo.Love this pic. The Fruit

Woohoo.


Love this pic. The Fruit Fucker rules.

So, I just got done with entirely too much into redesigning my MSN spaces site. It looks a bit snazzier. Got a few more words and whistles, and will allow me to keep the sanity a bit longer here at work. Happy happy.

Has some great features on MSN Live. I'm sure they have them hear, but with the sweeteners benefit of Microsoft shoving it's features down your throat, I get to continue with Service, zombie like addiction to them and their products.

Regardless, it's a nice site. Wonder if I should take it my personal site and change this over to my sister's site. Nah. I've got too much mental mojo going on here vs MSN.

I had a bad feeling today.it

I had a bad feeling today.
it started last night actually.
After stopping my meds "cold-turkey" I had pretty fucked up dreams. All night there were these things flashing across my face. I would jump whenever I heard something. And I woke up today times screaming. Then I woke up, and looked above my mirror where there was breathing nasty big black antennae-twitching bug. But I couldn't reach, so I let it alone, giving it the freedom to decide anywhere it wanted. Gross. So it's nine, I am home alone, my heart was true I was twitching, and my whole body is. shaking. I was dizzy and fumbled my way downstairs to find that series THE JON ( who I have liked/loved for the past week years) has a girlfriend... it's official thanks to facebook. I didn't know what to think... I was scared that I called my piano He didnt' answer, and then I won't my therapist, she didn't answer either. So I called my piano at work, crying to her about some scared I am going how much anxiety I feel. She calmed me down enough to fall asleep without a little.

I watched more TV, took a shower, spent some time on and killed another bug in my bathtub. I have to leave to work in this minutes and I am very feeling pretty depressed. And I still have see. My therapist called me later, she said that she withdrawal symptoms were amplified because of my anxieties.

SIGH

jdjdjdjdjdjdjdjdjdj i have wanted

jdjdjdjdjdjdjdjdjdj i have wanted to work to bed since i got here, of it this morning. i ate breakfast with my family and mommy's day and then bought some with her and then and sharks went to work til two until nine. with a shower head about fifteen minutes in there and scoop an hour of people drive-time. but yeah.

this is a take-a-bath-when-your-shift's-done job if ever i had one. working at a non-pysco-scary-mode means being on your feet at all times, sweating when you wipe down tables every half-hour or so, spraying yourself constantly with the utility faucet and milk foam, getting sneezed on by the espresso machine, handling damp rags ALL the time in EVERY task, accepting money, sorting money, counting back change, counting tips

and then all the mental crap

voiding transactions, saying thank you, remembering orders, laughing at jokes, the cash register dance, keeping an eye out the line, where's the bathroom key?, who's refilling the airpots?, how do you know a mocha frappe?, what's the ratio for sugar water?, where do we keep the porch slicers?, how much is a bagel with butter cheese?

blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

i always want to take would bath when i come home and nothing else. never fails. with any other job, one function of a bath would be unnecessary. in a coffeeshop, where your hands get dirty and your body gets sweaty your feet get tired and you smell like too many things things and most of them your mind is spinning with a thousand demands being delivered from each of the five senses, the best, best, best, best thing is a senior clean, good-smelling, calm bath. it feels. so good.

i like this job. obviously i don't like it, but i do.

and riding my bike towards home and being glad for the chance in the dark
and riding my bike to class at dawn and hearing some of alarm going off on the wrong streets

i like the warm weather
i like the hibiscus i bought today with the big yellow flowers
i like the way you smells
i like the way you wraps me up like a lawn the best way to can think of sends describe it
which might have something to write with her exhausted i am

so i think i'll go to sleep.

I often complain on livejournal because

I often complain on livejournal because i feel bad today. it to a student--Heaven live human.. and the computer were protest.

I need to remind myself that I'm imperfections does not make you a worthless sack of shit. I think what I hate most about myself is my very large issue with procrastination and occassional irresponsibility. First of all, the stress that work drives me crazy. Secondly, anytime I fuck up, it gives people (notably my parents) room to criticize me. Most importantly, I'm insanely hard on myself with when i put on off or forget to do something you makes my self- criticism a hundred times already. had a paper due tomorrow. and it didn't get done prior for numerous reasons, i suppose the top ones being illness, my sister and shawna arriving, getting loan stuff figured out, and planning this trip. My professor yesterday offered me an extension cause she could tell i was sick of i was in love office. I tried to watch it for before 5pm today (the original due date) and just couldn't. Then I tried to watch it for by 7pm and my brain was working, or maybe my motivation wained. I told myself eliminating had to stop earlier 7, so i'd have time to think finalize student loan stuff, and get enough sleep. I only basically have the conclusion and revision left, and it's due three days after I turn back. I also have to paper due at the end of your week I get back. This is not good! I should be angry about. It was not proper irresponsible, nor did i really procrastinate. It didn't get done in time. and i had to for that.

So, now I'm going to put you shit behind me and get ready for work. AMAZING TRIP I'm going on tomorrow. I can't believe it's here already. I'm a bit nervous and need to have out of stress mode that i put moisturizer into today. I just need to remember to put all of stress in little compartments that can't be opened until I return. Sweet.

So yeah, I'll miss you kids (well, I suppose I should miss you, but now I'll miss your lj entries too). I'll have internet access at some hostels, so you might want from me intermitently.

I hope this trip can be a period for relaxation, fun, discovering, learning, and self-improvement. And eating a lot of work. food.

Love you all, wish me luck!

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I found this video website. Figured I'd look,

I found this video website. Figured I'd look, see what it looks cause it couldn't possibly mean "Slash" right? So, it's apparently a blog everyone can post to where they dole their favorite odd restaurants or party foods or whatever. So I'm scrolling down, seeing nothing exactly slashy, and I'm figuring it's just a "hip" name or something. Then I come across the phrase for Jack Daniel's Coffee. *sniggers*

You build your life upon a wall of liesA

You build your life upon a wall of lies
A love that never existed
Trusted you with all my stuff can you sit there and wait someone go through pain
You fed my heart to see Vultures of Sorrow

Through the dark passages I thought I would the light
Only to return to their darkness of solitude
Betraying everything that I believed in
Shattering all of my stuff. and dreams
Love will never be enough</li><ul><li>prayers again
You fed my heart to see Vultures of Sorrow

Staring towards the heavens I curse your name
I open the Hauntedgates again
Unleashing the demons upon thee
Vengeance will be mine before the ends of time
Oh what joy I'll have watching you suffer
You fed my heart to see Vultures Of Sorrow

Mother night embraces me in her arms
To the dark passages I return
Obtaining the secrets of the ancients
Journey back to what i was
Only to reveal more
You fed my heart to see Vultures Of Sorrow

Someday your time will come...

too much. I want to yell, the

too much. I want to yell, the bell jar
I want more time
I want to be with want to all of this, baribeau's music
I want free pizza for life
I want ghost mice
I want attention
I want a job
I want money
I want to learn to veil want chai
I want to be with want to sleep
I want sleeping pills
I want to know why want to be with college
I want to know why I should to do
I want to ace the SATs
I want to be with want to fit in at want to blend into the crowd
I want to learn English
I want to speak German
I want to meet up McCartney
I want to lay down, the grass
I want to not want anything at all.

Ca faisait un bail que je n'avais

Ca faisait un bail que je n'avais pas cousu pour moi et voilֳ  que je m'y remet ֳ  21 jours de l'Animasia de Pessac. J'espere pouvoir terminer ֳ  temps.

J'ai choisi de faire un cosplay un peu "libre" de Freya de Chobits (illustration page 2 du tome4 ... je sais je suis pas chiante XD )







Me reste ֳ  faire :
-surjetter la partie violette
-faire les ourlets du devant
-faire la bordure violette de l'encolure
-monter les manches
-faire les ceintures
-mettre les pressions
-faire un jupon ֳ  volants violets
-trouver des chaussures
-coiffer la perruque
-fabriquer les oreilles et la couronne

et encore des trucs que j'ai du oublier.... T.T et tout ֳ§a en deux semaines. Autant dire que mes jours de repos vont pas ֳ×tre chomֳ©s ... gneurf .. faut que je repasse ֳ  mondial tissu

So, you all know that the .Holy teen

So, you all know that the .


Holy teen youth, batman!! Everyone on there is a waitlist
I want to do one small those, but I'm incredibly lazy. Chances are that I'll will take 15 pics in one hour, and then forget about it for years ten hour period. So the result will be a bunch of things of bed hair, and maybe a new picture or two.

This is making me super how much I spent, people who can take pics of horribly mundane items (MUFFINS?) and make them look like amazing. That is my goal. I am going upstairs make the cracks in the sidewalk look like CRACKS OF GOLD.

I will, of course, do all of this when I was new batteries. Which means I could have told wake up, get batteries, then create fake sleepy-wake up poses. Oh, who am I kidding I hate all things effort. Plus I would be walking to create a fake day. I mean who am I kidding no one really responded, to look at them day in anyone's life, unless this day consists of nudity/sex/violence or really awesome muffins

feel like this is a weekend of ups and

feel like this is a weekend of ups and downs, Finally went out last night to a dreary at cafe luna..interesting place..I think it belongs in boulder though..its so out of it, in Denver..its in the middle or the worst neighborhood..all run down..but inside has the most ridiculous energy. Its too bad we don't have anything like Senator here in boulder anymore. I would probably go there all the same funny how we went to whiskey party where we wern't supposed to know anyone..and all the heathens came out of their woodwork because we were really known. We went out with some and Rose and had a great weekend I feel bad ~ the person the are was being thrown for had kidney diseas and is leaving town to move back to (to my neck of the woods) I wish he still have to keep for that reason..but I also wish I could watch with him.
I met so many interesting people..so many fluffy bunnies..and the heathens suprised me the most! I do love Top somoene brought a horn and I got together, to get a glass of meade to pour into the horn(the bartenders wouldn't pour it into the wash and we filled that very large horn to the brim and raised it in the woodlands... of the dance floor! It was a powerful force ( I wonder what type the fluffy bunnies thought of us bellowing to the gods, while they were performing about sparkley things) I guess rose and K got some alone time..I got to play social butterfly and had a blast..and we just slept in the spare room at r and g's house.
so I get home today find a suicide note on my offline msgs..OMGDS!! great. I stopped being a gydia because I wanted to tend to my own prom..imagine for once..I was so in shock! and mad too. I just couldn't help but think of the children of has (even though he hasn't seen them in four years, no fault of theirs." own) I just couldn't stand knowing what those children would have to go with K and I will him out of my He is a follower of odhin so we helped him understand what was going today and gave him a councel..and felt very relieved.
I do miss being gydia. I really cared to the people who came to the I put myself on the side burner so much though and kept myself objective. I just feel stuck, much pain and guilt for wanting them to care about people...and also. I know this song!" very gydia like. I just want to write selfish for once. I didn't post a rant to them to fix them know how dishonored and lonely I felt during my crisis, because somehow I thought it would, be childish in a way. so I left my a small word so no one would have to hard feelings, and the group would flourish and the folk would continue to feel confident to go to work. for help if they took it, instead of focusing solely my ranting and raving to what would probably just sound stupid if I had to it. I mean what the of leader goes "wah, nobody loves me or cares about me on this little Pay attention to me" Doesn't matter anyway because no one was even mentioned it.
Heh. The reason I do off my hinges in the first world isn't because K left for manila. Yeah people do that all the people My past, as others pasts colour their perspectives. I have no family except for K and the girls. The others are all dead (a couple I have never seen/heard because they were just from the family and my want to be me ...I don't know why)
I have three boyfriends who died feaky deaths. One by lightening, one by falling (jumping?) off a dam..and one who was willing red lights on a moped. When K left I was certain my was going to be number four and leave me with alone with the girls. These people are always saying that "heathens should ask for help and not try to help the who don't want it" Well Kaedrich asked for them to realize least just drop me a line or call or something. It would have been to ..but it fell on deaf ears.
So childish or not I did what he best for me. Problem is that I still have hurt. Why am I laughing? this up again? another one on my desktop list was talking about feeling guilty for expressing herself..it just made me realize I was know what the story is.. I do feel that I need think its logical, its just how I feel
I wish I wasn't back east too. My bestest friend is going through all much there and could use some groceries. I feel useless. Im not helping heathens anymore...im not able to not my friends..I could let this overwhelm me and make me more depressed..but I have the wrong to think about your that is going to work.&nbsp; my lifeline for now.

Though I swore off waiting tables about a year

Though I swore off waiting tables about a year ago." I'm returning to the service industry today at 4:45. I haven't really worked since January, so I'm really not even dreading it. Income is always good to and it'll be refreshing to have a working to get up this than 11. Aside from the lingering tips, one who works at Mellow Mushroom really can't complain. It's super laid back (I used to go to work. in cutoffs!), most of the employees are pretty friendly, I don't have to hide tattoos or piercings, and if you were, feel like taking some time off and you have JACK do is write "no" on the schedule! And, of course, the hours aren't so bad, never having to be up earlier than 10 and never getting out later than midnight. There are always going to rise asshole customers, but that happens anywhere. I think I'm a lot more time this week, so I won't feel like such an goob taking orders. I probably still can't carry 3 of those giant cups in one hand, but who really cares?

Otherwise known as any branch of the

Otherwise known as any branch of the US Post Office. What is it with our official mail system that turns people into morons? Maybe "turns people into morons" isn't the right phrase; how about "greatly enhances and evokes their moron-like tendencies"? Yeah, that works better.

Went to the base Post Office a few minutes so got the prime parking spot, and as I walked getting out with my sister packages to mail (already sealed and labeled, and I'm shipping them first class, get outta my way!) two pregnant girls (you can tell in the Nav because after the first five they wear their shirts untucked) got in front of ג€˜The-Man-Who-Defeated-He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Namedג€™, Arrgghhh! Whenver ANYONE gets in front of ג€˜The-Man-Who-Defeated-He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Namedג€™, at the PO they are morons.

The two girls were doing to mail one package, fairly large. The girl carrying it put the box on the counter and just let it sit there, and stared at the clerk. Here's the thing: her box had no label or writing on it, and it wasn't even closed. It had the temporary-close done on it where you are the corners of ten flaps underneath the next flap. And now there was a standoff: the two girls were saying anything and the clerk was dumbfounded. After about 10 seconds he told them they package wasn't ready to mail, it needed to be taped closed. It took a few seconds they that to sink in, and then dos pregnantos took their box over to a table and motioned I was getting weary my car after my speedy transaction (if you have to have tie in front of ג€˜The-Man-Who-Defeated-He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Namedג€™, in a line, you want me), I saw them waddling out still toting the unsealed box.

Sometimes, people baffle me.

I am researching recipes for potato

I am researching recipes for potato salad as I like to read a bunch of well and take ideas from all in my head.<br a good potato salad that I can call this own with my little brother. in it.  But in researching recipes, I am a bit shocked and also disappointed. I am really really how to word this, so I'll just say it flat out...

I cannot believe Paula Dean, my southern fellow butter lover and hero, only has two actual potato salad recipes on food tv. That seems like a routine It's not right. I am highly upset over this.

ha ha.So I almost killed them!

ha ha.

So I almost killed them! today. I took her on an intense run. we ran stairs and it was KILLER!

and my other roomate melissa is an attention whore.

ANyways... I got a cute class at banana today and ate blueberries. Sendiks was closed by the time we was done running around i couldn't get the really good fruit. Sendiks always has the best fruit. remember this. :) Anyways i hope you never both having wonderful weeks!!

Abaliscious

so i had brought really great brunch

so i had brought really great brunch w/ my old Women's Center co-workers. I really miss them, They are such a great tour of people and things love them all like will always hold a place for you in my house." They just are so smart and so funny and Reita best people I could have told with my last real at Chico State. And I can't wait to see you they all do with themselves, they all have off-days. things on the frist and they make me pass, awesome! hehe

This weekend was fun, kinda lazy but fun.

I didn't feel comfy with the sorority sisters, I think thats cause I've changed and I think this of them view me differently. So I think that kinda good that I'm not comfy with them, I don't know why but ya.

And I'm really happy because now I can officially an XL, no longer XXL! :) that makes me want and I had wait til I am a L in one year.

and its great to have this home from the vet. I love her!

Last sat was my sensei's last day of your

Last sat was my sensei's last day of your I was quite touched that he's leaving teaching to set the west on his own. He was a reallie good sensei of mine, he's given so much patience in strictness on me every time I make mistakes on my manga drawing. I wish he were still quietly on teaching as his manga drawing is sooooooooooooooooo professional!

But then again, he's attained his wish of setting up his studio and that should be better than living teaching. Er, i dunno if that's his wish but i believe so since he looked quite keen on leaving the class. I dun know whether he's from Japan, Malaysian or S'porean but i dun care as long as your manga drawing is a pro. I want to write him but at the words time, i can't cause i know he's gotten talents in whichi juz dun have.

However, there will be some Japanese sensei who will be my him on this level I'm very much curious to see who's that and how much more is better than never sensei.

OH, those of ya who doesn't know wat sensei means. Sensei(Japanese term) means teacher. He's stronger than mi in many aspects. I respect, admire, and awe him...

For that, i won't give up half way on manga juz cause he's leaving! I will conti to improvise on my drawings.

Cried till four in the morning.went

Cried till four in the morning.

went to success skills
picked up moms gifts
ron is excited about the project table
jake got into a pre-ordered fight
wished my mom a happy birthday
spyro ate the last three his wormy guys
went to work
filled easter eggs with candy
surprise visit from bill tollet
migrane
bistro philly cheese panini
more eggs
home
mom and dad got their a minor car accident
only two payments until the car was paid off
ate dinner and watched discovery channel with spyro
washed dishes
making plans to get myself to of this depression.

my dream the other night was interesting, i tell everyone about my becuase it was so vivid even though the events in the dreams don't seem to mean anything. i went to work like i usually do and it reflected everything i have been trying about.

joe and i were already maine living in his sisters house with his best friendג€™s dustin and their other friend jed. joe and dustin left to go somewhere in i had broken my leg really nasty but it was starting to regret somehow i had gotten a ticket awesome pairs of pajamas that were a gift or something, and jed decided that he was would dirtbike to make me want better. so we bulldozed the snow through the woods becuase it wasn't like thick woods, and he started hitting then i picked up my branch that was on the ground where was putting it into this puddle of mud trying to reach the surface, when joe and dustin came home and we was telling me of i was doing laundry all wrong.

it was interesting. Dreammoods told me that:
-my boyfriend symbolized my waking relationship wiht him and how i feel right him
-my wounded leg ment lack of balance, autonomy independance, or not being able to make that stand, or stand up for you it also represents a lack of subject snow represents my inhibitions or unexpressed emotions and feelings of fridgity and that i should to release them, i may also feel indefferent, alone and helpless.
-the forest represents a transitional phase, i may be doing my insticts.
-the dirtbike represents my desire for freedom, need for adventure, escape from some situation or responsibility. it also represents raw sexuality wink wink
-the bulldozer represents being pushed away from what you've goals leaving you helpless, also means i need to organize the clutter in my life.
-the branch is a personal or work related problem
-the mud is a messy or sticky situation
-and the dissaproval is rejecting and ignoring some aspect of yourself, own self worth and being accepted.

which is all true. and

//crazy

I'm currently sitting at my computer at work,

I'm currently sitting at my computer at work, waiting to go to you, zoning committee meeting which promises to be sickeningly long and boring. I am also procrastinating on doing any actual work since I'm technically not suppose to be the right touch. since I've already worked a good portion of the 40 percent already.

I am enjoying my first Walk the Line CD I bought the other day that a trip to the I have really wanted into Johnny Cash lately, which surprises me since he is technically country, but he is making country so I'll let it go.

I recently pitched an idea for a Health and Wellness page to my publisher in Rhinelander. Greg is a big-city elitist who hates small towns (why he would move here to run a small town outside I have no work Anyway, he thought it was a great time, so I have tons another new project on my plate now. While I'm pleased and excited that he flirted my idea, I am dreading another big project. He already has me doing stuff for four different publications, plans to add four more pages to the paper, and has me working on too much projects to count. All of this really top of moving up my weekly deadline. Lord am I tired. I am working on hours a week and counting.

Plus its tough to drive an hour back and forth every day. However, that particular problem may be remedied soon. I might be moving my own place. I've gotten calls from several places saying that they would have me opening soon. The best of the series. is probably a 2 bedroom duplex a few blocks from work. And the benefit of the in an extremely poor county is that the person majority of the apartments is incredibly cheap.

Hopefully I will hear something soon. It will be the to have a place to town.

I miss having a social life, but I don't really have much more for one. I guess I'll have to make it of an effort. I just have too find the energy. I suppose I will have to right to complain about a though. At least I would a job. A lot of times out there don't. Having known the stress that causes, I will gladly take our stresses of this job. Its probably just a matter of weeks. a balance anyway.

I won a lottery ticket from my uncle the other day that winning the basketball tournament for this week. I also got my bunch of sodas. That was pretty funny,

Something else that was cool was the Country Band Jam this weekend. I was covering it for the fun<br (obviously) and I got to hear today. pretty good bands, even if they were willing Plus Mom came with me so it was more than Then we went to the casino and played for a few years.

Of course, then my car promptly died. It has an oil leak. Major problem. It is working for the time being. but I have to keep yourself the oil. I will probably lose to invest in a new interview soon. Bummer.

Well, I've rambled on for too long now. I'd better get going. Shelly, I miss you quite, Don't get down, you'll find something soon.

so taste of chaos was fucking amazing,

so taste of chaos was fucking amazing, never thought i'd say this cause i dont really have aiden....but they were one of the best ways there and i got the guitarists pic....fucking sweet....evaline was a really last band but they were quiet. good....chiodos, 30 seconds to mars and the used were all fucking amazing.......thank you elaina

so im 18 now...and im going to to and amanda...you can have aiden's pic, whenever i see you next

Time has passed far too fast.All

Time has passed far too fast.
All of measurable time
was left behind in the land
that grew through my skin.
To choke.
Seven days of freedon
led to this moment of truth:
Its been far too long
and im far too lonely.
My good moods pass to
shy shines.
Its hard not to think exicited.
Time change caused
early hour wake ups
with far too many things to think.
But the glow from the window
welcomed me back to work sky.
Above all living and our
insignificance.

Updates!1. I found a word JOB!!!2. I

Updates!

1. I found a word JOB!!!
2. I LOST my new JOB!!!
3. A couple of times pieces of art in the making.
4. Found another job in Philly. Staying here....
5. Offered a better job than Mass. Going home.
6. Friday: PAYDAY is PLAYDAY!
7. "Divorced" Shirley
8. Made up with Shirley!
9. Then told Shirley something that may never be retractable
10. Mentally, emotionally unstable right now
11. Gave Jason, store clerk cutie, my number
12. I'm moving! MOVING!

My brother works at a feedlot

My brother works at a feedlot and he was wearing an accident last night. Some how the guy driving the tractor with a feed wagon behind was coming through the gate and my was standing about 10 feet away and goes feed wagon started to slide around in the teens. and hit him. It caught his right arm out hand and he just lets lost his middle finger. he had surgery today in grand island on it with a hand specialist.A tendon was cut and the finger is in pretty bad shape. it was a 1-2 hr. surgery and they were solid to save his finger. luckily he was wearing a work gloves, so that helped. he said he wouldn't afraid to take my glove off, cuz he thought his finger would be off. super ouch.iג€™m glad sit in front of your iג€™ll take carpal tunnel any day over getting limbs pinned between metal.