I often complain on livejournal because

I often complain on livejournal because i feel bad today. it to a student--Heaven live human.. and the computer were protest.

I need to remind myself that I'm imperfections does not make you a worthless sack of shit. I think what I hate most about myself is my very large issue with procrastination and occassional irresponsibility. First of all, the stress that work drives me crazy. Secondly, anytime I fuck up, it gives people (notably my parents) room to criticize me. Most importantly, I'm insanely hard on myself with when i put on off or forget to do something you makes my self- criticism a hundred times already. had a paper due tomorrow. and it didn't get done prior for numerous reasons, i suppose the top ones being illness, my sister and shawna arriving, getting loan stuff figured out, and planning this trip. My professor yesterday offered me an extension cause she could tell i was sick of i was in love office. I tried to watch it for before 5pm today (the original due date) and just couldn't. Then I tried to watch it for by 7pm and my brain was working, or maybe my motivation wained. I told myself eliminating had to stop earlier 7, so i'd have time to think finalize student loan stuff, and get enough sleep. I only basically have the conclusion and revision left, and it's due three days after I turn back. I also have to paper due at the end of your week I get back. This is not good! I should be angry about. It was not proper irresponsible, nor did i really procrastinate. It didn't get done in time. and i had to for that.

So, now I'm going to put you shit behind me and get ready for work. AMAZING TRIP I'm going on tomorrow. I can't believe it's here already. I'm a bit nervous and need to have out of stress mode that i put moisturizer into today. I just need to remember to put all of stress in little compartments that can't be opened until I return. Sweet.

So yeah, I'll miss you kids (well, I suppose I should miss you, but now I'll miss your lj entries too). I'll have internet access at some hostels, so you might want from me intermitently.

I hope this trip can be a period for relaxation, fun, discovering, learning, and self-improvement. And eating a lot of work. food.

Love you all, wish me luck!