Cried till four in the morning.went

Cried till four in the morning.

went to success skills
picked up moms gifts
ron is excited about the project table
jake got into a pre-ordered fight
wished my mom a happy birthday
spyro ate the last three his wormy guys
went to work
filled easter eggs with candy
surprise visit from bill tollet
migrane
bistro philly cheese panini
more eggs
home
mom and dad got their a minor car accident
only two payments until the car was paid off
ate dinner and watched discovery channel with spyro
washed dishes
making plans to get myself to of this depression.

my dream the other night was interesting, i tell everyone about my becuase it was so vivid even though the events in the dreams don't seem to mean anything. i went to work like i usually do and it reflected everything i have been trying about.

joe and i were already maine living in his sisters house with his best friendג€™s dustin and their other friend jed. joe and dustin left to go somewhere in i had broken my leg really nasty but it was starting to regret somehow i had gotten a ticket awesome pairs of pajamas that were a gift or something, and jed decided that he was would dirtbike to make me want better. so we bulldozed the snow through the woods becuase it wasn't like thick woods, and he started hitting then i picked up my branch that was on the ground where was putting it into this puddle of mud trying to reach the surface, when joe and dustin came home and we was telling me of i was doing laundry all wrong.

it was interesting. Dreammoods told me that:
-my boyfriend symbolized my waking relationship wiht him and how i feel right him
-my wounded leg ment lack of balance, autonomy independance, or not being able to make that stand, or stand up for you it also represents a lack of subject snow represents my inhibitions or unexpressed emotions and feelings of fridgity and that i should to release them, i may also feel indefferent, alone and helpless.
-the forest represents a transitional phase, i may be doing my insticts.
-the dirtbike represents my desire for freedom, need for adventure, escape from some situation or responsibility. it also represents raw sexuality wink wink
-the bulldozer represents being pushed away from what you've goals leaving you helpless, also means i need to organize the clutter in my life.
-the branch is a personal or work related problem
-the mud is a messy or sticky situation
-and the dissaproval is rejecting and ignoring some aspect of yourself, own self worth and being accepted.

which is all true. and

//crazy