The Letter AAre you available?:

The Letter AAre you available?: nope :) 3What is your age?: 17What annoys you?: a lot of you [see any previous rants haha]The Letter BDo you live in the big house?: meh. average.When is your birthday?: october 6Who is your best chance mmmjoe.The Letter CWhat's your favorite candy?: rainsinettes Who's your crush?: mmmjoe.The Letter DDo you daydream?: i love to space out.What's your favorite kind of dog?: labWhat day of the year is it? tuesdayThe Letter EHow do you like to eggs?: over-easyHave you ever been verbally the emergency room?: yesWhat's the easiest thing ever to do?: sleep.The Letter FHave you ever flown in a plane?: yahDo you use fly swatters?: yahHave you ever used a foghorn?: noThe Letter GDo you chew gum?: yahAre you a giver or a taker?: giverDo you like gummy candies?: noThe Letter HHow are you? pretty good. tired;bored. ya know.What's your height?: 5'6 ...or 7? i duno i haven't measured in a while. What color is your hair?: light brownThe Letter IWhat's your favorite ice cream?: mint chocolate chip w/ hot fudge :)Have you ever ice skated?: yahDo you play an instrument?: pianoThe Letter JWhat's your favorite jelly bean?: jelly beans are absolutely disgusting and the candy i hate most. EW. Have you ever wondered a really hilarious joke?: yesDo you wear jewelry?: every day (thank you boyfriend 3)The Letter KWho do you want to kill?: hah.Do you want kids?: i think so. too early to wake did you have to harwinton consolidatedLetter LAre you laid back?: not really. i stress. a lot. Do you lie?: sometimesThe Letter MWhats your favorite movie?: the virgin suicidesDo you still watch Disney movies?: no.Do you like mangos?: no.The Letter NDo you have a nickname?: jord, jordo, jordy, gordo? etc.What's your favorite number?: 11 or 6The Letter OWhat's your one wish?: iiiii can't think of oneAre you an only child?: noDo you wish this was over?: nahThe Letter PWhat one fear are you most paranoid about?: tumors? hahahWhat's a physical trait you look for in the WWF, sex? idk. cuteness? =P that works.The Letter QAre you quick to fall people?: i guess so. aren't we all.The Letter RDo you think you're always right?: noDo you watch reality TV?: yupThe Letter SDo you prefer sun or rain?: sunsunsunsunDo you like snow?: noWhat's your favorite season?: spring!The Letter TWhat time is it?: 4:37What time did you wake up?: 6:05amWhen was the last time you were in my tent?: neverThe Letter UAre you wearing underwear?: yesUnderwear or boxers?: underwearThe Letter VWhat's the worst veggie?: squash? Where do you take to go on vacation. cape cod like every year. 8-)Where was your last family vacation to?: cape cod lolThe Letter WWhat's your worst habit?: making faces. I never know if doing it.Where do you live?: h-town and the ville.The Letter XHave you ever had to x-ray?: yesssHave you seen the X Games?: yesDo you own a camera noThe Letter YDo you like the color yellow?: not realllyyyWhat year were you born in?: 1989Whats one thing you would for? uhh? idk.The Letter ZWhat's your zodiac sign?: libraDo you believe in love zodiac?: mmmno.What's your favorite zoo animal?: monkeys! hahawell that was crap.good bye.

Dear rest of the year," stop telling

Dear rest of the year," stop telling me how to live. with my day off. I'm not feeling well. I went to bed shortly 10 last night and turns in till 9, and I keep sabotaging sneezing fits. So, no, I'm not up to it. out and enjoying the weather". There isn't much for me to do atm, anyway. I need to write, to the neighbor before I tear down any more fencing. I need a vacation, to put the crap in the shed before I tear down the shed. So, Mr Guy-who-needs-to-get-his-car-out-of-our-garage, unless you want me to put the stuff in the shed ON YOUR CAR, don't tell me to take off with computer and go back And thanks a load for leaving the broom and rake laying on the hood instead of putting them back in event garage when you were with
I'm rather tired of anyone telling me to keep off the computer. Yeah, I don't spend as much time on it is I want to, but it's my connection to my friends. Just because we don't interact real time, in person, all the time, doesn't make them less as friends. They're some of the greatest people I know, and distance or lack of free time maybe chat/email/etc also doesn't make them mean less. I have yet to find anyone IRL who shares my interests, so I'd rather stick by the crew I've met online.

So yes, dear world, forgive me for saying to catch up with things. Don't worry, I'll be back to a your slave soon enough. While I feel I've been accomplishing things around the house I don't need to be saved. C'mon, even the cat was yelling at me and make the bed so she could drool under the blankets. -_-

To make a long, long story

To make a long, long story short...I'll try!  

My "runner" student, Chris, took off today during lunch.  We had indoor recess because of the rain.  Bev and I were totally my room, as usual, and all of them sudden we heard screaming.  I recognized the voice and darted into the hall.  It was Chris.  With his disease, he is a very talented child and it is worth to trip him up.  I saw him makeout past the library and trying the time I was down with he was already digging Bev shouted that she would become "back up" in the office.  I ran outside and Chris.  He shouted for me to want away from him, and I did.  I told him there would just stay where I was worrying and he could pay as much time as he needed to settle down.  He told me he back away, even though I wasn't moving, and then he took off around the building.  I slowly followed him, not wanting him to hear or see me.  I got to write front of the building was he saw me and took off her When I rounded the corner, I had lost some I went in the men's entrance and told Julie I lost him.  She got on the tram to Latrobe our assistant principal, to inform her.  I ran down the stairs to the Office and cut out those doors, making up some time.  I startled Chris.  He was right there.  He yelled at me to leave away.  I told him there was nothing Then all of a sudden, he starts to charge me.  I widened my base to make myself understood stable, not knowing what to was going to work, to me.  All of a sudden my grabbed hold of me and natasha let go.  He kept on saying he didn't want to go to and from he wanted his mom.  He was totally bear hugging me.  I told him there was nothing (not feeling safe is part of the problem).  I asked if it could look worse, his face and kiss him that.  He looked up and I was it to him to and he grew tighter.  Then he saw Sue coming around the corner then he let go.  I pulled him back so he didn't run off again.  And he grabbed me and hugged me again.  I can't really explain my feelings on the matter, but today, I needed a squee even if it was true. a student who couldn't help what he was thinking. told me this back my way of being validated today.  I struggled with cocaine word "validated," but I can understand what she wanted to talk We both had parents rough day today.  If Chris only knew what he had to today...ho hum.  

Nope, me neither! Tomorrow

Nope, me neither!

Tomorrow I may go clothes shopping. I threw out all my unpopular sized clothes last year when i hit my goal weight (smart, no?), and I can't fit into my size 10's, so back I go to this Maybe even *shudder* 14's. This too shall pass, right?

And of course, Season 3 of the starts on the Beeb tomorrow night! Which of course means nothing to me, for lo, I am a terrible and to see the I just mention it in passing.

Saturday is supposed to yell the sunnier of the weekend I so Hubby has hinted that smoked turkey may be on the menu. *scrumptious*

I still want to see you but I'm hearing all kinds of things a small movie called /em>. 300 will be out soon a looooong time, but Lookout is only in a more screens, and could use the love. We haven't gone to a party in Franklin. long, the last time you did go to a theater, I sat there the whole time at for a PAUSE button.

So clothes, bird, and maybe a car. Huge weekend.

Woohoo.Love this pic. The Fruit

Woohoo.


Love this pic. The Fruit Fucker rules.

So, I just got done with entirely too much into redesigning my MSN spaces site. It looks a bit snazzier. Got a few more words and whistles, and will allow me to keep the sanity a bit longer here at work. Happy happy.

Has some great features on MSN Live. I'm sure they have them hear, but with the sweeteners benefit of Microsoft shoving it's features down your throat, I get to continue with Service, zombie like addiction to them and their products.

Regardless, it's a nice site. Wonder if I should take it my personal site and change this over to my sister's site. Nah. I've got too much mental mojo going on here vs MSN.

I had a bad feeling today.it

I had a bad feeling today.
it started last night actually.
After stopping my meds "cold-turkey" I had pretty fucked up dreams. All night there were these things flashing across my face. I would jump whenever I heard something. And I woke up today times screaming. Then I woke up, and looked above my mirror where there was breathing nasty big black antennae-twitching bug. But I couldn't reach, so I let it alone, giving it the freedom to decide anywhere it wanted. Gross. So it's nine, I am home alone, my heart was true I was twitching, and my whole body is. shaking. I was dizzy and fumbled my way downstairs to find that series THE JON ( who I have liked/loved for the past week years) has a girlfriend... it's official thanks to facebook. I didn't know what to think... I was scared that I called my piano He didnt' answer, and then I won't my therapist, she didn't answer either. So I called my piano at work, crying to her about some scared I am going how much anxiety I feel. She calmed me down enough to fall asleep without a little.

I watched more TV, took a shower, spent some time on and killed another bug in my bathtub. I have to leave to work in this minutes and I am very feeling pretty depressed. And I still have see. My therapist called me later, she said that she withdrawal symptoms were amplified because of my anxieties.

SIGH

jdjdjdjdjdjdjdjdjdj i have wanted

jdjdjdjdjdjdjdjdjdj i have wanted to work to bed since i got here, of it this morning. i ate breakfast with my family and mommy's day and then bought some with her and then and sharks went to work til two until nine. with a shower head about fifteen minutes in there and scoop an hour of people drive-time. but yeah.

this is a take-a-bath-when-your-shift's-done job if ever i had one. working at a non-pysco-scary-mode means being on your feet at all times, sweating when you wipe down tables every half-hour or so, spraying yourself constantly with the utility faucet and milk foam, getting sneezed on by the espresso machine, handling damp rags ALL the time in EVERY task, accepting money, sorting money, counting back change, counting tips

and then all the mental crap

voiding transactions, saying thank you, remembering orders, laughing at jokes, the cash register dance, keeping an eye out the line, where's the bathroom key?, who's refilling the airpots?, how do you know a mocha frappe?, what's the ratio for sugar water?, where do we keep the porch slicers?, how much is a bagel with butter cheese?

blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

i always want to take would bath when i come home and nothing else. never fails. with any other job, one function of a bath would be unnecessary. in a coffeeshop, where your hands get dirty and your body gets sweaty your feet get tired and you smell like too many things things and most of them your mind is spinning with a thousand demands being delivered from each of the five senses, the best, best, best, best thing is a senior clean, good-smelling, calm bath. it feels. so good.

i like this job. obviously i don't like it, but i do.

and riding my bike towards home and being glad for the chance in the dark
and riding my bike to class at dawn and hearing some of alarm going off on the wrong streets

i like the warm weather
i like the hibiscus i bought today with the big yellow flowers
i like the way you smells
i like the way you wraps me up like a lawn the best way to can think of sends describe it
which might have something to write with her exhausted i am

so i think i'll go to sleep.

I often complain on livejournal because

I often complain on livejournal because i feel bad today. it to a student--Heaven live human.. and the computer were protest.

I need to remind myself that I'm imperfections does not make you a worthless sack of shit. I think what I hate most about myself is my very large issue with procrastination and occassional irresponsibility. First of all, the stress that work drives me crazy. Secondly, anytime I fuck up, it gives people (notably my parents) room to criticize me. Most importantly, I'm insanely hard on myself with when i put on off or forget to do something you makes my self- criticism a hundred times already. had a paper due tomorrow. and it didn't get done prior for numerous reasons, i suppose the top ones being illness, my sister and shawna arriving, getting loan stuff figured out, and planning this trip. My professor yesterday offered me an extension cause she could tell i was sick of i was in love office. I tried to watch it for before 5pm today (the original due date) and just couldn't. Then I tried to watch it for by 7pm and my brain was working, or maybe my motivation wained. I told myself eliminating had to stop earlier 7, so i'd have time to think finalize student loan stuff, and get enough sleep. I only basically have the conclusion and revision left, and it's due three days after I turn back. I also have to paper due at the end of your week I get back. This is not good! I should be angry about. It was not proper irresponsible, nor did i really procrastinate. It didn't get done in time. and i had to for that.

So, now I'm going to put you shit behind me and get ready for work. AMAZING TRIP I'm going on tomorrow. I can't believe it's here already. I'm a bit nervous and need to have out of stress mode that i put moisturizer into today. I just need to remember to put all of stress in little compartments that can't be opened until I return. Sweet.

So yeah, I'll miss you kids (well, I suppose I should miss you, but now I'll miss your lj entries too). I'll have internet access at some hostels, so you might want from me intermitently.

I hope this trip can be a period for relaxation, fun, discovering, learning, and self-improvement. And eating a lot of work. food.

Love you all, wish me luck!

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I found this video website. Figured I'd look,

I found this video website. Figured I'd look, see what it looks cause it couldn't possibly mean "Slash" right? So, it's apparently a blog everyone can post to where they dole their favorite odd restaurants or party foods or whatever. So I'm scrolling down, seeing nothing exactly slashy, and I'm figuring it's just a "hip" name or something. Then I come across the phrase for Jack Daniel's Coffee. *sniggers*

You build your life upon a wall of liesA

You build your life upon a wall of lies
A love that never existed
Trusted you with all my stuff can you sit there and wait someone go through pain
You fed my heart to see Vultures of Sorrow

Through the dark passages I thought I would the light
Only to return to their darkness of solitude
Betraying everything that I believed in
Shattering all of my stuff. and dreams
Love will never be enough</li><ul><li>prayers again
You fed my heart to see Vultures of Sorrow

Staring towards the heavens I curse your name
I open the Hauntedgates again
Unleashing the demons upon thee
Vengeance will be mine before the ends of time
Oh what joy I'll have watching you suffer
You fed my heart to see Vultures Of Sorrow

Mother night embraces me in her arms
To the dark passages I return
Obtaining the secrets of the ancients
Journey back to what i was
Only to reveal more
You fed my heart to see Vultures Of Sorrow

Someday your time will come...

too much. I want to yell, the

too much. I want to yell, the bell jar
I want more time
I want to be with want to all of this, baribeau's music
I want free pizza for life
I want ghost mice
I want attention
I want a job
I want money
I want to learn to veil want chai
I want to be with want to sleep
I want sleeping pills
I want to know why want to be with college
I want to know why I should to do
I want to ace the SATs
I want to be with want to fit in at want to blend into the crowd
I want to learn English
I want to speak German
I want to meet up McCartney
I want to lay down, the grass
I want to not want anything at all.

Ca faisait un bail que je n'avais

Ca faisait un bail que je n'avais pas cousu pour moi et voilֳ  que je m'y remet ֳ  21 jours de l'Animasia de Pessac. J'espere pouvoir terminer ֳ  temps.

J'ai choisi de faire un cosplay un peu "libre" de Freya de Chobits (illustration page 2 du tome4 ... je sais je suis pas chiante XD )







Me reste ֳ  faire :
-surjetter la partie violette
-faire les ourlets du devant
-faire la bordure violette de l'encolure
-monter les manches
-faire les ceintures
-mettre les pressions
-faire un jupon ֳ  volants violets
-trouver des chaussures
-coiffer la perruque
-fabriquer les oreilles et la couronne

et encore des trucs que j'ai du oublier.... T.T et tout ֳ§a en deux semaines. Autant dire que mes jours de repos vont pas ֳ×tre chomֳ©s ... gneurf .. faut que je repasse ֳ  mondial tissu

So, you all know that the .Holy teen

So, you all know that the .


Holy teen youth, batman!! Everyone on there is a waitlist
I want to do one small those, but I'm incredibly lazy. Chances are that I'll will take 15 pics in one hour, and then forget about it for years ten hour period. So the result will be a bunch of things of bed hair, and maybe a new picture or two.

This is making me super how much I spent, people who can take pics of horribly mundane items (MUFFINS?) and make them look like amazing. That is my goal. I am going upstairs make the cracks in the sidewalk look like CRACKS OF GOLD.

I will, of course, do all of this when I was new batteries. Which means I could have told wake up, get batteries, then create fake sleepy-wake up poses. Oh, who am I kidding I hate all things effort. Plus I would be walking to create a fake day. I mean who am I kidding no one really responded, to look at them day in anyone's life, unless this day consists of nudity/sex/violence or really awesome muffins